Though only our second summer in Oregon, I feel like it’s taken me and Donnie way too long to really start to enjoy the fresh fruits around here. We’ve been consuming lots of cherries, strawberries, blueberries, and a few raspberries and blackberries. I need to go back to the Farmer’s Market this Saturday and load up on more! And hopefully soon, I’ll venture out into the You-Pick berry farms.

My lunch this afternoon was probably the healthiest lunch I’ve ever had (excluding a few salads). Here’s a yummy picture of it:

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It’s one of the Pacific Natural Foods soups (Buttery Cream Corn) to which I added sauteed onions and red bell peppers and a little cayenne pepper. And then next to that are cherries, fresh bell peppers, and a kiwi. Mmmm. (Mom, aren’t you proud as well as shocked and awed?)

I chopped up a couple of onions last week as well as two red bell peppers and have them in the freezer now to pull out whenever I want to add them to my meals. I don’t know why I didn’t do that sooner!

AND, I’ve cut my hair–almost 8 inches! Here’s a picture of that:

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It was difficult to take a great picture on my own, but as you can see, it’s shorter and I’ve got bangs, again. So far they aren’t bothering me. We’ll see.

So I’ve had no shortage of babysitting work for the past few weeks. In fact, as soon as I got back from my trip to Texas, I’ve been babysitting four days a week for three different families. And this week, I’m actually doing five days for four families. So at the moment, the sudden workload is a little overwhelming, but I’m glad that I’m staying busy unlike last summer. In fact, I’m making enough money to cover my montly private insurance premiums, which is good enough for me! Now I just need to create a detailed weekly schedule so that I force myself to get in some good solid writing time.

On the plus side, I’ve started working out at least four days a week at OSU’s Dixon Rec Center. As faculty (:D), I get a discounted membership that comes out to $4 per week, which is pretty dang good. I’m trying to get used to being in a gym regularly and in a locker room with women walking around freely before, during, and after showering.

I’ve also moved into my new office in Moreland, which I’m sharing with Isabelle, the other Bridge Instructor and one of my close friends! It’s a big move up from sharing an office with five other people. And I’ve started revisions on my lesson plans and syllabus for the four business writing courses I’ll be teaching in the Fall. I’m kind of excited but also a bit nervous at how I’ll juggle grading for 100 students.

And my reading is also going well! More updates soon as I’m closing in on one of the books now!

So while in the middle of trying to finish up the new Jhumpa Lahiri short story collection, A Room of One’s Own, and Alice Munro stories (among others), I’ve started a new book–George Eliot’s Middlemarch.

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I’m a fool. But whenever I go to the library with Donnie and he checks out all sorts of graphic novels and comic books, I feel left out and wish I could check something out for myself. I haven’t checked out a book in months, but the draw is still there. It’s part of the old attraction to the crinkly plastic book jackets that can only be found at the library and the heft and importance of having a novel lying about the house that must be read by a certain time. It’s about having a set goal.

So now I have a set goal with Middlemarch of August 3rd. Even though I know I can renew my loan, I’m going to try to get it done by then. We’ll see. It’s a long novel, but nothing compared to Dickens’ Bleak House and with slightly larger text! I’m already 100 pages in and have finished Book One. It’s my first George Eliot novel, and I’m finding her wit most amusing (very Jane Austen-esque). I have to keep remembering that it’s a library copy so I can’t mark on the pages. Instead, I’m denoting my favorite lines with a tiny pencil mark and then writing down the page number on another piece of paper. When I’m done, I’ll go back through and type up my favorite lines. Yes, I will actually do it–if I finish on time!

Also, while reading Middlemarch, I’m going to try to read the next in Mary Stewart’s Merlin series–The Hollow Hills. Before I checked out the Eliot book, I placed a hold on The Hollow Hills and even though I could just ignore the hold, I really want to keep reading the series. It’s all my mother’s fault for handing me the book when I was visiting in Texas, and then my fault for reading it obsessively and all through both legs of my flight back (note: I usually don’t read on planes. I’m one of those people who stares into nowhere and wishes she weren’t almost experiencing motion sickness.).

I hadn’t realized before writing this that I’m sort of a slave to voluntary deadlines. It’s similar to the way I handled the Amish Friendship Bread neverending chain of baking. I had to keep baking loaves every 10 days, until after several rounds, I finally forced myself to stop.

Anyway, I guess I better go read!

From June 19th to the 24th, my sister Sara and her husband Thomas and two of their kids (Tommy and Ella) visited us here in Corvallis! We went to the coast where we semi-successfully flew a kite on the beach. Ella was actually the best kite flier! And we also visited the aquarium and two lighthouses. On Saturday, we walked through the Farmers’ Market and the kids played in the water fountains. And then on Sunday, we hiked to several of the falls in Silver Falls State Park.

Here are a few photos from their trip!

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Thomas, Tommy, Sara, and Ella looking at and touching sting rays

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Sea horse resting on blown glass that decorated many of the aquariums as part of the Oddwater exhibit.

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A shark in the shark tunnel!

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Ella at the Farmers’ Market

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Donnie and Tommy at Farmer’s Market

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Tommy and Ella at the park near our apartment.

 

So I attended OSU’s commencement on Sunday, June 15th. First, I want to say that I think it is irresponsible for the university to ask thousands of people to sit in the sun from 1:00-4:00 p.m. Why not hold the ceremony in the morning or late afternoon? Even though I slathered my face in sunscreen, my nose still burned. And it was hot. (Note: the people on the “platform” had a lovely shade, as you will soon see, and I wonder whether or not they would move the ceremony time if the President and his pals had to sit in the sun the whole time.)

But here are some lovely pictures commemorating the occasion:

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Me and Lauri Binney

The Binneys actually left church early to come find me in the lining up area. They stayed around to take pictures of me walking and then left. It was very sweet!

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In my gown

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Strolling along during the procession across campus

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Pre-hooding

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Post-hooding

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With the diploma

All in all, I was glad that I went to graduation because I definitely feel like I have graduated!

This summer I hope to catch up on my reading. Though I love reading, I tend to find ways to avoid it, which is a problem since I’m a writer and someone who ostensibly likes reading.

I’ve just added a new book to my “Reading Future” list over on the right: Ken Kesey’s Sometimes a Great Notion. Ken Kesey also wrote the much more famous One Flew Over the Cuckoo’s Nest. Ken Kesey lived in Eugene and attended University of Oregon and lived out his later years in Pleasant Hill; both books (as well as most of his others) are set in Oregon.

I discovered the existence of this book while searching around on the internet for movies that were filmed in Oregon. During my search, I found a community board where people were listing all the movies filmed in Oregon. And one of them was the movie version of Sometimes a Great Notion. And then I followed a link to a ten-minute clip on YouTube of a very moving scene from the book/movie. I’d recommend watching it whether you intend to read the book or have watched the movie before: http://youtube.com/watch?v=vKdF-IP7rE0. It appears to start slowly but picks up. Watching it was enough to make me want to read the book.

Off to read, maybe.

I’ve been meaning to make my own magnets for some time now, but I never had gotten myself to the craft store to buy a hot glue gun, the little clear pebbles, and the magnets. But I finally did yesterday! Then I realized I didn’t have any cool magazines to cut up for the paper images. But then I thought a clothing catalog would work because it has lots of vivid prints and colors. And it did! Here are some of the ones I made:

With the flash (so you can see the image under the pebble):

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Without the flash:

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I’m very proud of myself for not only buying the materials but then actually using them!

Friday was the Second-Year MFA Reading, so here are some photos of me and my compatriots reading and listening:

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Jason and Ted

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Marjorie and Jason

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Isabelle reading

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Ruben reading

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Active listeners

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Me reading

Here are some pictures from dinner tonight when we took the creative writing professors out for dinner at Fireworks:

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Keith and Tracy

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Marjorie

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Me and Lauren

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Ted, Isabelle, and Ruben

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Tracy

(Oh, and while Isabelle and I did not get the Spring Creek residency, we did get the bridge instructorship for next year!)

 

Tuesday was my last workshop in a college setting. Fortunately, the piece that was workshopped was well-received, so I didn’t feel demoralized by the end of the workshop. But I still think I’m in denial. And knowing that I’ll probably return to OSU as an instructor next year keeps me in the denial stage. I’m not really leaving. I’ll be back.

On the 15th, I will walk at commencement. Today I bought my hood. It’s brown and orange. Not attractive. And by the 15th I should know whether or not Isabelle and I were accepted into the Spring Creek Project’s residency at The Cabin at Shotpouch Creek for later this summer.

I’m a little sad to think that this huge chapter of my life is coming to an end. But I still have grading to do. So maybe I’ll let myself feel mournful next week.

“I really feel sorry for people who think things like soap dishes or mirrors or Coke bottles are ugly,” Robert Rauschenberg once said, “because they’re surrounded by things like that all day long, and it must make them miserable.”

Yesterday, Robert Rauschenberg died at 82. I only studied his art briefly in an art history class, clumped together with the likes of de Kooning and Joseph Cornell. At the time, I remember resisting all of their works. It felt too simple, too obvious. Anyone could go and collect “found objects” and arrange them in a shadow box or shellack scraps of fabric and paper onto a canvas. Or splash around color on a canvas.

I don’t remember learning that Rauschenberg did all of that and more; he was a “painter, photographer, printmaker, choreographer, onstage performer, set designer and, in later years, even a composer, Mr. Rauschenberg defied the traditional idea that an artist stick to one medium or style,” says Kimmelman in his NY Times article. That’s more impressive to me, somehow, that he wouldn’t just settle with one. That he had the compulsion to work in several mediums, searching for the best outlet for what he wanted to express.

As far as creating art out of “found objects,” it’s still true that anyone could go out and collect these and fasten them to a canvas or in a box. But it never occurred to anyone to find beauty and mystery in the everyday things around them until Cornell and Rauschenberg came along. And that’s what makes it revolutionary. Sure, all along, anyone and everyone could have done that, but no one did. But there’s still the question of whether or not it’s art.

As I said earlier, I used to resist this kind of art. I like realism and even though art made of real objects is in some ways the only kind of realism, the art produced by it actually feels more like poetry, specifically poetry that requires me not only to think as I read the poem but to think afterwards as well. To actually spend time with the art, not just be able to look at it for two seconds and in that two seconds be able to realize something beautiful is in front of me. At the time, I was, in many ways, a lazy art lover. Appreciating the accuracy and beauty of portraits and landscapes done in the realist style is easy. It is easy to say, “That looks life-like and I know that’s hard to do. So I’m in awe.” And I think that’s valid and good and wonderful. But I think that I, at least, didn’t want to move past that.

When art wasn’t about accuracy and life-likeness, then I had to work harder to find the achievement. I love the Impressionists, and some of their work does push the boundary of realism, but it’s still so close that it isn’t a hard leap for me. In fact, I enjoy the loose realism and the dazzling interest in light. But found objects and abstract expressionist painting felt different. Too big of a leap.

And in some ways, their art still is difficult for me to accept fully and completely and without question as Art. I want to know what I’m looking at and why. If I see a portrait of a little girl with a watering can (Renoir), then I’m confident I understand what I’m supposed to be seeing and understanding. It’s a beautiful painting of a little girl. The content is simple. The execution is not. But overall, I do not have to work hard to understand what I’m seeing. And that’s good, as it was intended. It’s easy. (That is not to imply that all of Renior’s work and the Impressionists’ work are easy to understand. But many of them are.)

But when I look at one of Rauschenberg’s works, like “Skyway,” I struggle to understand what I see. I have to piece it together, look closely, and try to make sense of it. And I’m not also sure that I’m successful, but that’s part of the pleasure, as with poetry. Likewise, Cornell’s boxes, like “Untitled (Pharmacy),” require that first I enjoy the objects themselves. I’m a bottle lover and these little bottles at once intrigue me. Cornell has arranged them as if they’re in a medicine cabinet, but the contents don’t appear to be medicinal. So I look closer. I see a butterfly in one, seashells in another. And soon I realize that the contents are all natural (including the pieces of paper). And then I’m forced to step back and think. Bottles filled with the natural world, a subversion of my expectations. The contents are beautiful, like little ships in bottles, found beauty trapped in glass. I feel like I’m close to understanding. So now what am I supposed to do with this box of bottles? I can’t immediately define it. And I believe that’s what Cornell wants. Because often, as soon as we define something, we check it off our list and move on. But I can never fully move on from Cornell’s works or Rauschenberg’s or any other’s of this same style.

And that leads me to what I already know about art. Art is the least interesting to the artist and the art lover (whether it’s painting, drawing, poetry, writing, etc…) when it’s easily figured out. The Impressionists were trying to figure out how to truly capture light (or at least, some of them were). Their images aren’t perfect and don’t want or need to be. And when I write, I write to explore, to figure something out, though I’m not always sure what that is. If I’ve already figured out my characters and their stories, then what’s the point? Art should be an act of discovery for both parties involved. If it isn’t, it might still be enjoyed. But it won’t last in the artist or art lover’s mind.

Rauschenberg sad during a 2001 interview: “I usually work in a direction until I know how to do it, then I stop. At the time that I am bored or understand — I use those words interchangeably — another appetite has formed. A lot of people try to think up ideas. I’m not one. I’d rather accept the irresistible possibilities of what I can’t ignore.”

This to me seems key. Work by artists like Cornell and Rauschenberg require us to keep searching for understanding. And that can be exhausting. But it’s what much of enjoying Art is all about.