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On the Vanity of Existence
From Essays
Arthur Schopenhauer
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The vanity of existence is revealed in the whole form existence
assumes: in the infiniteness of time and space contrasted with the
finiteness of the individual in both; in the fleeting present as
the sole form in which actuality exists; in the contingency and
relativity of all things; in continual becoming without being; in
continual desire without satisfaction; in the continual frustration
of striving of which life consists. Time and that perishability
of all things existing in time that time itself brings about is
simply the form under which the will to live, which as thing in
itself is imperishable, reveals to itself the vanity of its striving.
Time is that by virtue of which everything becomes nothingness in
our hands and loses all real value.
That which has been no longer is; it as little exists as does that
which has never been. But everything that is in the next moment
has been. Thus the most insignificant present has over the most
significant past the advantage of actuality, which means that the
former bears to the latter the relation of something to nothing.
To our amazement we suddenly exist, after having for countless
millennia not existed; in a short while we will again not exist,
also for countless millennia. That cannot be right, says the heart:
and even upon the crudest intelligence there must, when it considers
such an idea, dawn a presentiment of the ideality of time. This
however, together with that of space, is the key to all true metaphysics,
because it makes room for a quite different order of things than
that of nature. That is why Kant is so great.
Every moment of our life belongs to the present only for a moment;
then it belongs for ever to the past. Every evening we are poorer
by a day. We would perhaps grow frantic at the sight of this ebbing
away of our short span of time were we not secretly conscious in
the profoundest depths of our being that we share in the inexhaustible
well of eternity, out of which we tan for ever draw new life and
renewed time.
You could, to be sure, base on considerations of this kind a theory
that the greatest wisdom consists in enjoying the present and making
this enjoyment the goal of life, because the present is all that
is real and everything else merely imaginary.But you could just
as well call this mode of life the greatest folly: for that which
in a moment ceases to exist, which vanishes as completely as a dream,
cannot be worth any serious effort.
Our existence has no foundation on which to rest except the transient
present. Thus its form is essentially unceasing motion, without
any possibility of that repose which we continually strive after.
It resembles the course of a man running down a mountain who would
fall over if he tried to stop and can stay on his feet only by running
on; or a pole balanced on the tip of the finger; or a planet which
would fall into its sun if it ever teased to plunge irresistibly
forward. Thus existence is typified by unrest.
In such a world, where no stability of any kind, no enduring state
is possible, where everything is involved in restless change and
confusion and keeps itself on its tightrope only by continually
striding forward - in such a world, happiness is not so much as
to be thought of. It cannot dwell where nothing occurs but Plato's
'continual becoming and never being. In the first place, no man
is happy but strives his whole life long after a supposed happiness
which he seldom attains, and even if he does it is only to be disappointed
with it; as a rule, however, he finally enters harbour shipwrecked
and dismasted. In the second place, however, it is all one whether
he has been happy or not in a life which has consisted merely of
a succession of transient present moments and is now at an end
The scenes of our life resemble pictures in rough mosaic; they
are ineffective from close up, and have to be viewed from a distance
if they are to run beautiful. That is why to attain something desired
is to discover how vain it is; and why, though we live all our lives
in expectation of better things, we often at the same time long
regretfully for what is past. The present, on the other hand, is
regarded as something quite temporary and serving only as the road
to our goal. That is why most men...are surprised to see that which
they let go by so unregarded and unenjoyed was precisely their life,
was precisely that in expectation of which they lived.
Life presents itself first and foremost as a task: the task of
maintaining itself... If this task is accomplished, what has been
gained is a burden, and there then appears a second task: that of
doing something with it so as to ward off boredom, which hovers
over every secure life like a bird of prey. Thus the first task
is to gain something and the second to become unconscious of what
has been gained, which is otherwise a burden.
That human life must be some kind of mistake is sufficiently proved
by the simple observation that man is a compound of needs which
are hard to satisfy; that their satisfaction achieves nothing but
a painless condition in which he is only given over to boredom;
and that boredom is a direct proof that existence is in itself valueless,
for boredom is nothing other than the sensation of the emptiness
of existence. For if life, in the desire for which our essence and
existence consists, possessed in itself a positive value and real
content, there would be no such thing as boredom: mere existence
would fulfill and satisfy us. As things are, we take no pleasure
in existence except when we are striving after something - in which
case distance and difficulties make our goal look as if it would
satisfy us (an illusion which fades when we reach it)- or when engaged
ill purely intellectual activity, in which case we are really stepping
out of life so as to regard it from outside, like spectators at
a play. Even sensual pleasure itself consists in a continual striving
and ceases as soon as its goal is reached. Whenever we are not involved
in one or other of these things but directed back to existence itself
we are overtaken by its worthlessness anti vanity and this is the
sensation called boredom.
That the most perfect manifestation of the will to live represented
by the human organism, with its incomparably ingenious and complicated
machinery, must crumble to dust and its whole essence and all its
striving be palpably given over at last to annihilation - this is
nature's unambiguous declaration that all the striving of this will
is essentially vain. If it were something possessing value in itself,
something which ought unconditionally to exist, it would not have
non-being as its goal.
Yet what a difference there is between our beginning and our end.
We begin in the madness of carnal desire and the transport of voluptuousness,
we end in the dissolution of all our parts and the musty stench
of corpses. And die road from the one to the other too goes, in
regard to our well-being and enjoyment of life, steadily downhill:
happily dreaming childhood, exultant youth, toil-filled years of
manhood, infirm and often wretched old age, the torment of the last
illness and finally the throes of death - does it not look as if
existence were an error the consequences of which gradually grow
more and more manifest. We shall do best to think of life ...as
a process of disillusionment: since this is, clearly enough, what
everything that happens to us is calculated to produce. |